3 Years from Now…

3 years from now….

I’m sitting here trying to picture it… My son will be 14 by then. I have sworn off dating and relationships until he is out of the house. It would take a LOT to change that.

I used to think that by the time my son was 14 I would be married and just working and raising my kids. Now that all seems like a far off dream. Its back to just me and B.

In 3 years B will be a freshmen in high school. Hopefully following the rules for once and staying out of trouble.

As for me? I feel like I’m entering my Carrie Bradshaw phase. I see myself going to all the work functions with free food (my favorite), spending my mornings writing (I don’t post everything I write you know..), drinking my coffee and enjoying the silence of a quiet life.

Carrie Bradshaw: replacing the shoes and clothes with books and dogs.

When Steve and I split up last spring all my friends laughed at me. Not in a “haha your life sucks” kind of laugh but in the “Other girls who go through a break up do something crazy with their hair. You got another dog” kind of way as my friend AJ put it. But you know what, I was truly happy when it was just me and B in our little apartment. Long before Steve came into the picture. I always wanted dogs anyway (I wasn’t allowed to have them while I was growing up because the apartment had a no pets policy).

Now I own my house, I love my job, I’m getting back into my routine, and I have been feeling more ME than I have in a long time.

From the age of 23 to 29 as a single mom with what feels like a lifetime in between.

Quiet nights that turned into early mornings. Writing on my laptop at the kitchen counter (now at my desk in my home office). Drinking my coffee. Mornings with B before school. Dinner every night. Bedtime stories after bath time (Not that bedtime stories or baths happen anymore, he thinks he’s to big for that now).

When life starts to feel normal again, you start to do your normal things again.

In 3 years… I hope that feeling isn’t “more me” it’ll just be… Me.

Daily writing prompt

What will your life be like in three years?

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July 28th, 2020

What. A. Weekend.

Thursday night I worked late because my closer got sick and I had to wait until someone else could come in. Friday I worked an Open-Close (17 Hours total). Went back in to Open on Saturday. Got the last half of my shift covered so I could get some rest since I only had a few hours between shifts. Closing Manager called out. Got it covered, still ended up having to go back in and help because we also ended up short two drivers, one was sick and the others car broke down. Ended up working up until a half hour before we closed. For reference, an opening shift starts at 8:45AM and a closing shift ends (if you’re lucky) at 1:30AM. I went back in for my opening shift on Sunday, actually got off work at about 3:00PM. Monday rolled around and once again I was missing a closer and down two drivers again. Luckily we got the closing shift covered and people to help out in store so even being short drivers we were able to get them out at a decent time. I hung around to help get stuff done and my closer basically kicked me out around 9:30PM since everything was done. Today, was my day off. At least it was supposed to be. I ended up having to go in and open again. I only worked until about noon since another Manager and I were splitting the shift.

Needless to say, tomorrow is my day off. I don’t have ANYTHING I have to do. I will be sleeping in and not doing a damn thing all day. At least thats the goal. I made sure to run all of my errands today just so that I won’t have to do it tomorrow.

Wish me luck for a day of peace and quiet.

The kids have been great. They argue but what kids don’t at this age when there are so many of them. Andrew and I have decided that we need a Mommy and Me Day the next time the other kids are gone.

The court case for my nephews is in just a couple of weeks so we have limited time with them left. The next time we get them back from their dad however….. MY BESTIE WILL BE HOME!!! I can’t wait for the boys to see her. We aren’t telling them she will be here. I will just go pick them up from their dad’s like normal and then we will get home and BOOM!!! There she is!!! I’m so excited!!!

We’re still trying to find a bigger place to move into.

Ummm… I think thats it. I work, I mom, I girlfriend. The usual.

More soon! 🙂

July 13th, 2020

Its 10:30 at night. I worked today from 8:45am-9:00PM. Talk about a long day… I got home and Andrew was sleeping soundly, just like he was when I left this morning. Steven’s kids are with their Mom and my Nephews are with their Dad. Steven was in our room playing his video game. I got out of my work clothes and fired up my laptop. Unfortunately my work day wasn’t quite over.

So now its a night of me working, writing, and watching Supernatural while Steven and I both mow down on junk food. I like being able to work from home on the paperwork side of things. I officially have 4 weeks left until I sit down with my bosses to decide if I want to stay on, or if they should start looking for my replacement.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my job… Most days. Its nice being back in my hometown and working with a clientele that I understand, in an area that I know. I’ve been able to keep my work/home life balance pretty well. I have time for my friends again.. Stepping up means that balance will be a little disrupted. I’m already working 43 hours minimum every week. If I step up I’ll be required to do 50. Its not a huge difference and the pay is better. I just don’t know. I’ve been with this company for over 7 years… Is it time for me to move on? Or should I stick with it and see where it takes me?

That’s a decision for future me and a discussion that Steven and I will have to have. Feel free to leave your thoughts if you have any.

All I know is: 1) its my Friday 2)Tomorrow is my best friends birthday and we’re spending it at the beach with our families 3)I’m tired as hell 4) I love that I can sit here and work and write sitting next to this amazing man who loves me enough to put up with my work schedule ❤

Write again soon 🙂